[Kazuya's head moved in a very slow nod, not immediately replying. Honestly, he himself didn't know where to begin in the murky, disturbing story of Cain and Abel. The people who spoke of the story were influenced by bias and own personal gain, and over the millennia, those details had been warped and corrupted until no one but Cain and Abel himself knew the truth - the awful, unreliable truth.
Kazuya had glimpsed that truth, once, when his hand had pierced through Beldr's heart and torn it right out. For the very briefest moment, though at the time he hadn't known what it was he saw, that ancient echo of Abel that...]
So, back then, Cain and Abel were very devout followers of God. Cain tilled the fields, and Abel tended to the flock. [He idly turned his tea cup in his hands, his gaze distant] People did die in those times, but those people were "sacrifices", so it wasn't murder then. It wasn't a concept. It isn't an excuse for what happened but, it explained why he...
[Off topic, stay on topic, don't press too deeply into that]
I mean, anyway- it's like you said, Cain's offerings were rejected, and Abel's standing with God went up. But.
[The tricky part - how to explain this...]
Did you know, that Abel was a child of Lucifer, not God? Or, he was God's child, but Lucifer's too. Since, um, back then Abel was a remnant of a God that existed before, well, God: Marduk, or Bel, as he's more commonly known. God had usurped his position and split him into pieces, so he couldn't come back, and one of those pieces was Abel.
[Why and how it happened, Kazuya nor Abel were privy to that information. It simply... was. Abel was Bel, or a remnant of him, shaped by God's hand into mortal flesh and made a devout follower. Why He did that... well, only God would know His reasons, but Kaz was willing to bet it all on a show of dominance. How insulting would it be to see a part of yourself made a thrall of the God that took your throne?]
And, Cain murdering him wasn't just an unpleasant accident. It was... an act of necessity. Like, it was... [he made a frustrated noise, obviously struggling to explain this part - this was the murky bit, where Abel's final moments were more like smears of emotions and pain, than anything coherent and sharp, and everything else was somebody else's theory or opinion] It's believed that Abel was supposed to die. For some reason. And when he did, God dropped him like a hot potato.
[Red hot - that memory was simply red hot. Red. Very red.]
Cain was cursed with immortality, and Abel was dropped into hell. Just like that. Fell, right... in... and... was... [Something snatched at the edges of his vision, and he briefly felt dislocated from his own self. He struggled the sensation off, firmly slamming the metaphorical lid down on that dangerous pot of seething rage and resentment buried deep in his core before Bel took advantage of such a glaring weakspot] b-but- But- ah, he, didn't remain there for long. He, he split apart. His soul got so warped by hatred and resentment that he eventually... um...
[Oh shit, he just basically outed Abel as a demon. Fuck, roll back, roll back - why the hell did he go too far with that?]
W-Well, you get the picture! So, ah, what I mean is, Abel's murder was, um, not as cut and dry as the bible makes it out, h-hahaa... ah... so... that's why I get... possessed sometimes, because.... he, um, didn't... rest well after... dying........
[.....see this is why he didn't talk about his past - he was a horrible bluffer and liar]
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Kazuya had glimpsed that truth, once, when his hand had pierced through Beldr's heart and torn it right out. For the very briefest moment, though at the time he hadn't known what it was he saw, that ancient echo of Abel that...]
So, back then, Cain and Abel were very devout followers of God. Cain tilled the fields, and Abel tended to the flock. [He idly turned his tea cup in his hands, his gaze distant] People did die in those times, but those people were "sacrifices", so it wasn't murder then. It wasn't a concept. It isn't an excuse for what happened but, it explained why he...
[Off topic, stay on topic, don't press too deeply into that]
I mean, anyway- it's like you said, Cain's offerings were rejected, and Abel's standing with God went up. But.
[The tricky part - how to explain this...]
Did you know, that Abel was a child of Lucifer, not God? Or, he was God's child, but Lucifer's too. Since, um, back then Abel was a remnant of a God that existed before, well, God: Marduk, or Bel, as he's more commonly known. God had usurped his position and split him into pieces, so he couldn't come back, and one of those pieces was Abel.
[Why and how it happened, Kazuya nor Abel were privy to that information. It simply... was. Abel was Bel, or a remnant of him, shaped by God's hand into mortal flesh and made a devout follower. Why He did that... well, only God would know His reasons, but Kaz was willing to bet it all on a show of dominance. How insulting would it be to see a part of yourself made a thrall of the God that took your throne?]
And, Cain murdering him wasn't just an unpleasant accident. It was... an act of necessity. Like, it was... [he made a frustrated noise, obviously struggling to explain this part - this was the murky bit, where Abel's final moments were more like smears of emotions and pain, than anything coherent and sharp, and everything else was somebody else's theory or opinion] It's believed that Abel was supposed to die. For some reason. And when he did, God dropped him like a hot potato.
[Red hot - that memory was simply red hot. Red. Very red.]
Cain was cursed with immortality, and Abel was dropped into hell. Just like that. Fell, right... in... and... was... [Something snatched at the edges of his vision, and he briefly felt dislocated from his own self. He struggled the sensation off, firmly slamming the metaphorical lid down on that dangerous pot of seething rage and resentment buried deep in his core before Bel took advantage of such a glaring weakspot] b-but- But- ah, he, didn't remain there for long. He, he split apart. His soul got so warped by hatred and resentment that he eventually... um...
[Oh shit, he just basically outed Abel as a demon. Fuck, roll back, roll back - why the hell did he go too far with that?]
W-Well, you get the picture! So, ah, what I mean is, Abel's murder was, um, not as cut and dry as the bible makes it out, h-hahaa... ah... so... that's why I get... possessed sometimes, because.... he, um, didn't... rest well after... dying........
[.....see this is why he didn't talk about his past - he was a horrible bluffer and liar]